One step at a time

I had a meltdown this weekend.  A genuine, gonna pack up my things and leave all these people, meltdown.  I was exhausted, frustrated, mad, sad, overwhelmed and underappreciated.  satan took his best shot.  I am sad to say, it found a mark.  He does that ... lob's shots at us when we are vulnerable and weak.  That's his calling card.  The Lord had given me some specific things to do with my family, this weekend, that would have (at least helped) bring some healing in areas we've struggled this year and he desperately didn't want that.  He even used some of those people, I love so dearly, to sneak under my foundation and weaken it ... he likes to do that too. I ended up having a really good weekend even if it wasn't the one I planned.  I saw love.  I saw some sweet ... sweet ... decisions to love, even if they didn't want to or understand.  I saw Jesus. My family will receive all the Healing Jesus paid for them, even if ...

Fear. It is a driving force in our world right now. It is motivating some horrible people to do horrible things. It is not of God. It is the opposite of  Faith. It cripples faith because, It fuels satan's power in our life. God has not given us a spirit of fear.  II Timothy 1:7 tells us.  So, there is a Spirit of Fear.  It is most certainly not of God.  That verse, further, tells us He has given us a Spirit of Power, Love and a Sound Mind.  Interesting nouns He uses to describe the opposite of Fear The counter balance and path to overcome it ... Spirit of Power. Spirit of Love Spirit of Sound Mind. First thoughts of the morning are when I seem to hear Him most clearly.  I awaken and talk to Him and sometimes satan, telling him to leave me (or my family) alone.  This morning He began to discuss Fear with me.  I knew, a long time ago it was not to be played with (one of my strongest objections to Halloween).  He show...

After I dropped David off at school I decided to drop in our local, neighborhood Dollar General for a couple of things we need.  I like to peruse their aisles when I have a minute.  They have lots of merchandise turn over and with 5 children, 2 children in love and 3 grandbabies ... I have lots of birthdays (not to mention) Christmas gifts to buy.  I have two Gbabies who desperately love Mickey Mouse and his stuff is hard to find (seems Minnie is the Disney character in demand, these days).  I spend (about) an hour, ok maybe more, perusing.  When I finally get to checkout I had a buggy full.  Including some really cute gifts I was patting myself on the back for.  Little Dollar General checker is scanning away when she picks up a (particularly) cute item and (after scanning) says, "Oh, I can't sell this to you.  It's been clearanced." and THROWS IT AWAY.  Yep, snagged the trash can behind her with one shot.  My mouth hit the floor....